“The Holy Grail Called Innocence” by Michael Main

What is it I seek?
I seek purity.
I seek purity so that I may defile and be defiled.

I look upon the gateway to adulthood?
I look inside into a dark and dreary place.
When you enter that gate, you lose your innocence.

It's so dark in there, I don't want to go?
But I have to.
But I don't want to go alone.

Hands of the dirtied reach out and try to pull me in.
But I slap them away and scream?
"DON'T TOUCH ME!"

I fear them.
But I don't know why.
I am a being of light...
They of dark.
I can't trust them not to hurt me.

I look upon children and smile.
What innocence?
I wish I were still a child.

I wish I could take one with me into the darkness.
But one can't take children.
It is immoral.

Does there remain someone like me.
An adult... that hasn't been sucked into the darkness yet.
Someone I can lose my innocence with?
And assimilate into the darkness?
Which sadly is my destiny.