“The Darkness of Desolation” by Mike Cowie


Alone,
In Pain
I am here
And You
My Love,
My Life
In far away
Lisboa

How empty
Life seems
An aching, dark Void
Only You can fill!

Days of Darkness,
Grey Winter
(Even in Summer!)
Reigning in my Heart
Longing for Messages,
To
Hear your Voice
On the phone

Only you
Can dispel
My Darkness
If only I could
See that light
And
Know that
You
Ache for me
As
I for you!

Please don’t leave Me
In this Dark, Deep
Pain
The Downpour
Of my Tears
Cried
Invisibly and Silently
In the Depths of my Heart
A life
So cold
Without
Your Warmth

What do I do?
Where do I go?

My local Portuguese Café?
Immerse myself in Fado
So beloved of your Country?
But even that
Can Torment,
Accentuating
Your Absence
From a world
Almost become,
At times,
Dark and Alien!

You
Pervade my Existence!
A reason
To go on
Hoping!

In the Turmoil
Of my Mind
I see and hear you,
Reliving,
Endlessly,
Beautiful
Moments shared
Just
Walking and
Talking!

The Ache and
The Black
Hollow
That is
my Heart
Just grows and
Oppresses me!
So intense!
Such Pain
As I have never experienced!
At times
Too deeply Unhappy
Even to cry!

Please don’t forsake me
My Precious, Darling
Portuguese Girl!
Please find
In your Heart
A Space for Me!

I would cross the World
If only you
Would Call!
I just don’t know
How long I can
Bear
The dreadful
Emptiness
Of Separation!
Please rescue me
From this
Bleak and Miserable
Existence
Life has become!




Author's Note: Inspired by Fado and Heartache